Anatomy of a Thinker

Happiness is really a frivolous pursuit. Yes, it is quite fleeting and unreliable and sometimes very temporary. But that is no reason for us to shy away and close ourselves to it completely.

Despite all the disappointments and sadness, there needs to be something there. Something to live for. I think the persuit for happiness is one such thing. Not being a big believer in optimism or positivism, it seems a joke coming from a sad, dark pessimist like me but right now this is what I feel. Aimlessly flipping through websites, this is what I feel. Just happy. Quite simply. I feel free. I feel good about something and I have a stupid giddy feeling in my stomach. I feel everything’s going to be fine. Maybe it’s God. Maybe it’s a friend. Maybe it’s just me.

And I just cannot stop laughing to myself! I present the perfect picture of a mad, senile girl with hair all over my face in tangled knots and wearing purple stockings, to a painter. Truth is I miss feeling this way. Like the way you feel when you were thirteen. Like how you first saw a boy with light auburn hair and how you smiled because you had a crush. Or the time you first stayed out late with a friend waiting for the fireworks.

I’m going to dance to a new tune I found. This song makes me happy too.

I love this song! :-Dhttp://myfreemp3.eu/music/say%20it%20aint%20so%20roland